A Beautiful Eurasian Like Myself

Bits from Elliot Rodger's 'Twisted World'

"My mother is of Chinese descent. She was born in Malaysia, and moved to England at a young age to work as a nurse ... My father ... is of British descent.

[I had] the feeling that I was different because I am of mixed race. I am half White, half Asian, and this made me different from the normal fully-white kids that I was trying to fit in with.

I am beautiful, and I am half white ..."      

Also this longer, disturbing, excerpt:

"I soon became frustrated that no one was paying any attention to me, particularly the girls. I saw girls talking to other guys who looked like obnoxious slobs, but none of them showed any interest in me. As my frustration grew, so did my anger. I came across this Asian guy who was talking to a white girl. The sight of that filled me with rage. I always felt as if white girls thought less of me because I was half-Asian, but then I see this white girl at the party talking to a full-blooded Asian. I never had that kind of attention from a white girl! And white girls are the only girls I’m attracted to, especially the blondes. How could an ugly Asian attract the attention of a white girl, while a beautiful Eurasian like myself never had any attention from them? I thought with rage."